Shar-Shar

It's over now and I feel empty from my eyes come tears from my wrists a sea I don't feel like moving on I just know our love is gone I can't believe it going through this pain again the same old shit, the old pain times ten I'm sorry this had to happen and with all my heart, I regret all the pain I brought you and this, which I did let the tears flow free because I ruined a good thing but, to me, pain did it bring more pain fills my heart and it won't go away it tears my insides apart a pain that wont go astray so, I'm stauck with this decision that i made I'm sorry for your pain and now i start to fade.

Lies are spread lives are ruined messing with heads it's only begun poeple point and laugh and cause others to cry like beating them with a staff making them want to die make people go crazy and kill you or set themselves free bringign a gun to school you never knew it would be the last thing that you ever said to say one more mean thing to me and then i blow off your head it'll show you not to mess with me because you never really know who could be crazy but i think for me it shows so never hurt people you never know what they're capable of weither it's goign crazy or showing lots of love or I could kill myself that

The blood covers my hands i lick my fingers and it tastes pure that's what happens when you take a stand thats what happens when you're so sure That's what you get for hurting me the pain was the last straw and i finally see that you really were what everyone else saw i dig your grave deep and hope you will never rise and that you stay in eternal sleep or go and soar the highest of skies I didn't want to kill you but i wasnt the only one you brought pain and I had to set them all free from you their sadness from you will never again be gained

how could you leave me? couldn't you see i needed you? you helped me not cry, you helped me not cut, even though you wern't always there I loved you, and still do i still want you near all i want is you don't you understand that I'm sorry? please understand please forgive me. . . that's all i can say and I'm sorry for that too but the truth is all i want is to be with you

All we do is fight and this I know to be true because i'm happy now yet around you I'm blue mean things are said you're always depressed it seems to be that I'm just obsessed stuck on this argument stuck in this pain just like a knife stuck deep in my vein I can't stand it all this fighting that we do it makes me want to just break up with you but i can't do that because I Love You too much I just wish I could feel the old happiness in your touch it seems as though the spark is fading as the flame dies down and we sit here waiting nothing is the same it's all gone away the things i used to know didn't seem to stay

It's so hard to trust you you fucked up in the past how do I know that it'll be true how do I know it'll last you left me alone when I needed you here I called on the phone but you were never there you broke my heart you didn't call we were apart and all I did was fall you wern't there to catch me so I had to let you go I hated you for a while but this you already know I hated and hated you in this there is no shame but I know all to well that you were the one to blame you ruined everything all the happiness in my life you caused me all those tears you caused me all that strife but you get another chance and I hope

the last breath I take will be all for you the last move I make will be all for you your the reason I cut your the reason I'm dead your the reason I live your the reason my wrists are red you are everything to me both the good and the bad your the reason I'm not free you keep me from going mad you yell and scream at me then hug and kiss me too I don't know what to think I don't know what to do you save my soul you have my heart you lose control we can't bear to part I'll love you always yet I hate you now I want to stay with you and to throw in the towel I don't know what to do and I don't think I ever will I want t

I always see things inside my head things in my mind wishing I were dead different ways to die evil things I'm sure different things I must endure all things normal for me wrist cutting, suicide they won't let me be forever they will stay here with me until my dying day until that day comes near the visions will stay with me the visions will stay here.

My little one oh how I miss you so you left me not a long time ago you didnt stay but for a very short time and that's when I lost you in your earilest of prime I didn't get to see your face or wrap you in a dress of lace I didn't get to see your eyes or help you with your very first guys I didnt see you learn how to walk I didn't see you learn how to talk oh how I miss you my dear little one your life was over before it had even begun I love you so much even though your not here I say it again with each and every tear Why did you leave me? life would've been ok and now that you're gone there's a pain that do

I can't stand it anymore all this fighting between everybody it's driving me insane it's pushing me closr to the edge Billy, it's been 6 months and we are starting to fight it happens everyday and it happens every night it reminds me of Pat and what happened there when our relationship ended my heart did it tear my parents are always at it yelling and slaming doors it may be very small bit in my mind it's more but the worse fight of all is the one inside my head fighting to stay alive and fighting to be dead this fight never stops and I'm soon going to crack the ability to make it stop is a quality that I lack this wil